The Shadowman: A Journey’s Start

Like many others, my interest in UFOlogy began with an anomalous childhood experience that triggered a lifelong ontological & philosophical journey. Seeking the deeper meaning of consciousness, life, the universe, and our existence within it.

These ‘pierce the veil’ moments often leave us wanting more. For astronaut Dr. Edgar Mitchell, it was his famous “Field Consciousness” moment on his way back from the Moon. This is my moment, my experience. I’m not sure what to make of it – and I’m certainly NOT claiming that I experienced something specifically paranormal. But the high strangeness of it all has stayed with me for years; eventually I couldn’t ignore this feeling that some other esoteric truth was escaping me.

It was 1995, in a quiet wooded suburb of Washington D.C sometime in the middle of the night. I heard a rumbling and then a clatter by my desk, across from my bed. I was in the 3rd grade, and as a recent immigrant to the States, I made it a point of pride to do as well or better than the other kids in my class, and I had a big test in the morning. I was annoyed by the noise, and with only my parents around, I was sure one of them needed some scotch tape, a piece of paper, or some other supply I kept in my desk. I groggily opened my eyes and what I saw still lingers in my psyche to this day.

I made out a shadow of a human or humanoid, who froze immediately upon my stirring. He turned its head to me but I couldn’t make out any features whatsoever. It was about 5 feet tall. Completely black, enveloped in shadow, with a large ovalish head.

Alien Silhouette in Front of Stock Footage Video (100% Royalty-free)  1033746800 | Shutterstock

“Dad, whatever you need, you can get it in the morning, please, I need to sleep.” I complained. In my head, it had to be my dad – even if I knew he was taller, who else could it have been? ‘I’m half asleep, I must be half dreaming’ I thought to myself, I’m sure he’ll tell me it was him in the morning. I didn’t think twice about it, I just turned back around and went back to sleep.

In the morning, I found out my Mom had heard odd noises and woken up my Dad to look around the house. He got up and looked around, found a broken window, and called the cops. He said he peaked his head in to make sure I was ok, but never went in my room. And to our knowledge nothing was missing. So I don’t think the cops even filed a report.

I was very confused. Was it an intruder? Normal robbery gone wrong when my Dad woke up? Probably. Logic dictates; Occam’s Razor and all that.

But I cannot deny what my brain is telling me my eyes experienced: an image of a 5 foot being with a large round oval head, completely black, featureless, slowly turning its head toward me. That will sit with me forever. I only wish I had had the wherewithal to have engaged it directly.

That was the hook for me. The next day I immediately went to my little elementary school library in a state of mental frenzy, demanding that the Adult Powers That Be help me hunt down books to explain exactly what I saw.

I’m still on that hunt today.

Man – A Being in Search of Meaning

TTSA and what it means to me

By: Tommy Zito

January 26, 2015 is a day that I will remember forever. My world was rocked by the news released by Rolling Stone, with the headline “Tom DeLonge Leaves Blink-182”. This was a very sad moment for me as I was watching one of the most influential pieces to my adolescence, fall apart again. This news not only came by much surprise, but it was also very confusing and convoluted, as the band had just recently mended its wounds and reunited after the very tragic plane crash that involved the bands drummer Travis Barker.

In late 2016 Rolling Stone did this again. But this time with something a little more odd, and much more intriguing. I knew Tom was up to something. WikiLeaks had dropped some bomb shell emails between my favorite Rockstar and John Podesta, in “The Podesta Emails”. I’m sure WikiLeaks was just as surprised as I was to find that the punk rocker from SoCal was having in-depth conversations with high ranking government officials, and also Air Force and NASA generals. The breakup of Blink was becoming much more clear. It was obvious that Tom’s book Sekret Machines: Chasing shadows, co-authored with AJ Hartley, had made waves not only with the AVA and Blink faithful but within the US government too.

After the WikiLeaks e-mails were confirmed to be authentic we were littered with cryptic social media posts by Tom. Saying that a groundbreaking announcement would be made. This literally went on for months. Until October 11, 2017 when Tom DeLonge took the stage with some very impressive individuals, such as Jim Semivan, who spent 25 years working for the CIA, Dr. Hal Puthoff who’s spent a life time working with government black projects, including the CIA’s remote viewing program (Go watch the George Clooney movie, “The Men That Stare at Goats” Right now!) Christopher Mellon, who served 12 years on Capitol Hill in various positions including Deputy Assistant Secretary of Defense. The man was the keeper of our national secrets! Steve Justice, who served as the Director of Advanced Programs for the highly respected division of Lockheed Martin, Skunk Works. And a Career intelligence Officer named Luis Elizondo. The announcement was filled with telling information about the Public Benefit Corp, we all know today as To The Stars Academy of Arts and Science.

Tom DeLonge and Luis Elizondo, Image: Den of Geek

The formation of the company was only solidified on December 17, 2017 when the New York Times release the article “Glowing Auras and ‘Black Money’: The Pentagon’s Mysterious U.F.O program”. Where we learned that the government had not been 100% forthcoming, and they were studying UFO’s under a secret program called AATIP (Advanced Aerospace Threat Identification Program), started by Fmr Senate majority leader, Harry Reid, and was being run by our very own Elizondo. This article was combined with three historical UAP videos, and a truly amazing story told by a 18 year fighter pilot Veteran, Cmdr David Fravor. This changed the view on UFOs but also how ufology should work. It brought legitimacy to the subject and could no longer just be chalked up to tin foil hats and little green men.

The egg had been broken.

To The Stars Academy was propelled to the top of ufology and was making waves that we had never seen before. Shaking up not only the UFO community, but also mainstream media. In further work done by the great George Knapp. We later learned that this program not only was connected to every three-letter agency under the sun, but also to the legendary property once owned by Robert Bigelow, Skinwalker Ranch and now studied by one of Utah’s most prominent business men, Brandon Fugal . A property that I have been intrigued by and interested in ever since I learned about Coast to Coast AM, and truly where my roots began in ufology.

Brandon Fugal, Image: Utah Business Magazine

TTSA was what brought the subject full circle, left me without doubt that something strange is happening here and has been for a very long time. TTSA was the tool that got the government to unknowledge this phenomenon in a way they never had before. It answered some questions but has left us all with even more. TTSA is what made me ok with Matt Skiba taking Tom’s place in Blink-182 and has brought a elevation to a subject that was long overdue. No matter the recent TTSA revelations (see Mike B’s recent blog entry) the snowball is running down the hill at an unprecedented pace. I have no doubt in my mind that this can not be stopped. It’s too big, too fast, too involved and too damn interesting to just pull the plug. TTSA has given propose and motivation to even the most average person. Its given a voice, its given bravado in some circumstances. This is a machine that will not stop. To The Stars Academy is something larger than life, and one day could help provide answers to some of our greatest questions.

We cannot uncrack a broken egg.

Au Revoir TTSA?

Au Revoir TTSA?

There has never been an organization quite like TTSA in the history of UFO/UAP studies, considering they don’t even identify themselves as such. So much analysis of this company feels like trying to fit a round peg in a square hole. The comparisons are understandable to previous efforts of groups from different backgrounds working cooperatively that didn’t pan out, but that shouldn’t define every effort in the future that has similarities, including this group.

Our mission is to be a vehicle for change by inspiring a newfound appreciation of the profound, yet unresolved, mysteries of the universe that can unify people around the world. We are working to achieve our mission via an aerospace, science and entertainment consortium that collaborates with global citizens to investigate the outer edges of science and unconventional thinking and provide access to information through exotic engineering, entertainment media, and education that ignites the imagination.”

– TTS AAS Mission from SEC Annual Report FY 2017

Clearly some of the problems the community had with this organization were legitimate. Dave Scott of Spaced Out Radio listed 14 bullet points that red flagged TTSA . Anyone reading this should go check out Dave’s article. Some of those criticisms listed had traction and were legitimate. It’s no secret about the controversy TTSA’s efforts and presence precipitated.

How objective are the criticisms levied at Tom and his organization? They vary , but some deserve further elaboration.

-Tom Delong’s dislike of President Trump(and republicans in general) did not win over many in the predominant right/center right leaning UFO community. Others are just turned off when someone starts talking politics. That doesn’t change the fact that the topic is attached to all sorts of political and religious dogma. The community needs to learn how to navigate partisan rhetoric involving UAP, including Tom. If the intention is for this topic to become a serious talking point, there needs to be recognition it might become even more politicized than it is now. How can the discussion remain objective then?

-TTSA did not focus on witnesses/events from well known cases in the past was another criticism. I’m not sure this is entirely true. The scope of a project can define what you attack. Obviously their scope was not to rehash all of UFO history. Issues with this are more expectation management and less of TTSA not delivering. But it’s worth noting that they have cited other previous, well known cases in some of their work like Rendlesham Forest.

-It’s hasty to assume the TTSA former “spooks” are the same as the ones that help kept this story underground. To paint all DOD/DIA employees with the same brush isn’t a fair shake.

The TTSA saga is not over…yet. Most of the community is unsure of their future, but some people close to the situation say that “…this is one of the best things that could of happened.”

At the end of 2020, I’m reflecting on the last couple of years. When we look up at the disclosure scoreboard, no one was putting up points like TTSA.

Love it or hate it.