Are They Watching Me..?

I recently read Chains of the Sea, written by Gardner Dozois. The short story itself has many layers and offers some interesting perspectives on the Phenomena. Folks like Lue Elizondo have publicly stated how close this story could be to actual reality. The main character, Tommy, really resonated with me. For many years, he could see, feel, and communicate with the others. My personal experiences are no where close to what Tommy was experiencing. However, I feel my events are different and strange enough that they should be shared.

 My first remembered experience was back when I was 9 years old. My grandfather passed away a few months prior. Like any normal night, went to bed the usual way. However this night, something woke me up. As the cobwebs cleared, I looked over to my doorway, and saw a man standing there in shadow. I immediately thought it was my grandfather and was scared shitless. I buried my head under the covers and made no noise for some reason. My parents room was only about 10 feet away but i still decided to stay quiet. I began to just listen under the covers. Silence. A couple minutes later I hear my father’s alarm clock. I then hear him shut it off, climb out of bed and head into the bathroom. To this day, not sure what happened. All I can say is the memory has stuck with me for more than 35 years.

Since that day, I probably have had a couple dozen episodes at various houses. As I think back, some of them have happened around stressful times. Others, I’m not so sure. My typical vision is of a women standing at the end of my bed. Always in shadow. She only sticks around for a few seconds as I get my bearings. I don’t dream about her. I don’t know who she is. I’m always forced awake like I could feel a presence.

Over the years I feel like I am becoming more comfortable with these events even though they still feel traumatic during the moment. A couple months ago, I had a weird dream that was out of the norm. It happened during early morning. I was definitely in a light sleep pattern. In my dream I was visiting my parents with my 3 kids. We took a walk down the quiet road to a neighbor’s house. As the kids were playing in the road, I sat down at the end of their driveway looking at their house. In this dream, I was viewing myself as a third person above like a commentator at a sporting event. I remember clearly asking myself what the hell was I doing. To the western part of the neighbor’s yard are acres of dense trees. I remember all of a sudden I was getting “warning bells” that someone or something was watching me. I quickly woke up and sat up in bed. That “fight or flight” response activated every hair on my body to stand up. This was probably the most intense feeling I’ve ever had. Of course I got out of bed and turned on the lights. Nothing was visually there.

Was this just a dream? Maybe. It just felt odd and extremely different. I know what a normal dream feels like. This was not it. Writing this article is providing me a therapeutic release as I figure out what I should do. Business as usual? Perhaps. Should I set up cameras to record that occasional event? Should I cut out caffeine and the occasional beer to jumpstart more episodes? Not sure. Would you?

By @KeithGolembiew1 / UFO Phenom


My Experience With The Elizondo-Greenwald Saga

It’s nice to see titans in the field of fringe/UFO research sit down and speak objectively about complex situations. Which is why I applaud the recent Elizondo-Greenwald interview.

It’s no secret that I had very little respect for John, specifically in the way I perceived he carried himself in the early stages of Mr. Elizondo’s introduction to the public. It all felt very personal at a time when I was invested in the vetting surrounding Lue and his claims. I sincerely thought John was doing a disservice to the community at large with suggestive headlines & assumptions. To a degree, I still feel this is accurate.

At points I definitely took things too far in my distaste for John and his rhetoric. I posted regrettable statements about his car being burglarized due to poor karma (although I did note at the time I was relieved everyone was OK). I apologize to all for the poor decision making I exercised in posting that. I’m quite embarrassed I let my emotions get the better of me. I’m grateful for the friends I have who encouraged me to remove that post, like Andreas Freeman Stahl.

The reason why I mention this is because I do believe John acknowledged that some of his critiques of Lue did come off personally in his recent interview . Let’s also be honest, John does not suffer people he considers fools. Which can lead to some very contested conversations.

Over the past year or so, it does appear the John has adjusted his speculations away from it being significantly possible Elizondo was being untruthful. I think there were some key players in our community who helped convince John that Lue was not trying to mislead and they deserve credit one day.

So while we celebrate what looks a possible end to the Elizondo/Greenwald saga, it’s important that we remember we’re all people at the end of the day. Honor and duty go a long way with many of us and Lue can hold his head high. This was a big victory for team Elizondo . In that, it’s a victory for all of us.


UFOs and the Family Connection

UFOs and the Family Connection

For as long as I could remember I have been a curious person. I can vividly remember annoying the crap out of my parents with a million questions about everything I saw around me growing up. In my life I have had several strange encounters with UFOs and after doing some digging I found out that this is not exclusive to just me.

As a 10 year old kid on a beautiful September afternoon after school me and a couple friends in the neighborhood were play wrestling on the trampoline in my back yard. All of the sudden my friend John pointed up to the sky and said “what the heck is that thing!?”. For about 3 minutes my brother my neighbor and I stared at a metallic ball way up there in the sky. This prompted me to run inside and get my dad (knowing he is in aviation) to see if he knew what it was and even he was beside himself. This was my first ufo sighting and it lasted long enough for me to run to my neighbor John’s house grab his binoculars and have us all pass them around and get closer looks at this sphere. After it disappeared we concluded it was a UFO bc it was stationary for so long and this is when my father first told me the most amazing story I have ever heard from a family member to this day.

My father was raised on Long island by my Grandfather and Grandmother. My Grandfather was a pilot in WW2 and a helicopter pilot for Suffolk County police department in the 60s. That is where this story takes place. My grandfather was patrolling the beaches in his helicopter when he was called to check out a strange disc like craft hovering over the Northrop Grumman AFB. Upon arriving in the area my grandfather was looking at 2 large silver saucers hovering over the hangar in which the Lunar lander for the moon missions was being constructed in at that time. He chased the ufos as best he could before being called off by the air force. He then sat in a hover and witnessed 2 saucers completely toy with our best fighters of the time. My Father says that my Grandpa came home from work that day pale white and told my dad to go to his room. My father knew something was wrong because my grandpa never drank and had my grandma pour him a whiskey. He was pretty shook up about the encounter he had at work and my father eavesdropped as my grandpa told the story to my Grandma. That very week a silver saucer flew over Huntington Hospital (our family home was maybe 75 yards from the hospital tops) and swooped over our neighborhood emitting a pink smoke from the back. This was seen by many and made the papers in the Long Island press. My father recalls neighbors being interviewed.

Fast Forward to Christmas eve 2015 also in Huntington NY (long island); it is my brother, my mother, my father, and myself at approximately 11:55 pm when I am drawn to some lights appearing outside my window. At first I saw 2 orange lights and thought they were lights on the wingtips of a 747 on approach to JFK or something.. then those 2 lights turned into 4 and then 6 and then 7. These orange lights began dancing with one another (best way I can describe it) and some would turn off and reappear hundreds if not thousands of feet away in an instant. This prompted me to wake my parents and my brother and we were all at the windows watching this amazing show unfold before our eyes. We made the Rudolph and Santa jokes but this was no joke. Me and my father pull out our cellphones and begin documenting what we are witnessing and while we are doing this an 8th orange light appeared to enter our atmosphere at neck breaking speeds and flew on a downward trajectory heading straight for the ocean. My view was obstructed but I’m sure it hit the south shore at that trajectory if it didn’t change course but as soon as that happened the other 7 lights drifted straight up into a point and vanished. One of the 7 craft flew east and 3 of them just turned off like a light switch. After this incredible almost religious experience I couldn’t stop re-watching the footage I captured and remember thinking “damn, I actually captured something crazy” . I told my close friend at the time and he asked me to send him the clips, so I did. Upon him opening the video and watching it once it deleted off his phone, my videos deleted off of my gallery, as did my father’s videos. This really shook me up bc I know me and I would NEVER delete footage of ufos from my phone.. it was something that has been of great interest to me since i was 10 yrs old on that trampoline astonished at what i was seeing above me.

My theory on the xmas eve experience was that the craft crashed into the water, but my father believes it was a craft traveling so fast around the bend of the earth that it only appeared to be going down to us. I thought that was a pretty cool way to look at it but to this day my family always talks about that sighting and the others experienced by family members. In 2020 I saw a black triangle raining white orbs in september and more orange orbs in october here in fort wayne Indiana and I don’t think that I’m done experiencing this phenomenon by a long shot. In november I got an awesome photo of a tic tac ufo filmed by my uncle back on long island so I just want to say to the folks back on the east coast… keep your eyes on the skies because something is up there.

-Brian Smith



Man – A Being in Search of Meaning

TTSA and what it means to me

By: Tommy Zito

January 26, 2015 is a day that I will remember forever. My world was rocked by the news released by Rolling Stone, with the headline “Tom DeLonge Leaves Blink-182”. This was a very sad moment for me as I was watching one of the most influential pieces to my adolescence, fall apart again. This news not only came by much surprise, but it was also very confusing and convoluted, as the band had just recently mended its wounds and reunited after the very tragic plane crash that involved the bands drummer Travis Barker.

In late 2016 Rolling Stone did this again. But this time with something a little more odd, and much more intriguing. I knew Tom was up to something. WikiLeaks had dropped some bomb shell emails between my favorite Rockstar and John Podesta, in “The Podesta Emails”. I’m sure WikiLeaks was just as surprised as I was to find that the punk rocker from SoCal was having in-depth conversations with high ranking government officials, and also Air Force and NASA generals. The breakup of Blink was becoming much more clear. It was obvious that Tom’s book Sekret Machines: Chasing shadows, co-authored with AJ Hartley, had made waves not only with the AVA and Blink faithful but within the US government too.

After the WikiLeaks e-mails were confirmed to be authentic we were littered with cryptic social media posts by Tom. Saying that a groundbreaking announcement would be made. This literally went on for months. Until October 11, 2017 when Tom DeLonge took the stage with some very impressive individuals, such as Jim Semivan, who spent 25 years working for the CIA, Dr. Hal Puthoff who’s spent a life time working with government black projects, including the CIA’s remote viewing program (Go watch the George Clooney movie, “The Men That Stare at Goats” Right now!) Christopher Mellon, who served 12 years on Capitol Hill in various positions including Deputy Assistant Secretary of Defense. The man was the keeper of our national secrets! Steve Justice, who served as the Director of Advanced Programs for the highly respected division of Lockheed Martin, Skunk Works. And a Career intelligence Officer named Luis Elizondo. The announcement was filled with telling information about the Public Benefit Corp, we all know today as To The Stars Academy of Arts and Science.

Tom DeLonge and Luis Elizondo, Image: Den of Geek

The formation of the company was only solidified on December 17, 2017 when the New York Times release the article “Glowing Auras and ‘Black Money’: The Pentagon’s Mysterious U.F.O program”. Where we learned that the government had not been 100% forthcoming, and they were studying UFO’s under a secret program called AATIP (Advanced Aerospace Threat Identification Program), started by Fmr Senate majority leader, Harry Reid, and was being run by our very own Elizondo. This article was combined with three historical UAP videos, and a truly amazing story told by a 18 year fighter pilot Veteran, Cmdr David Fravor. This changed the view on UFOs but also how ufology should work. It brought legitimacy to the subject and could no longer just be chalked up to tin foil hats and little green men.

The egg had been broken.

To The Stars Academy was propelled to the top of ufology and was making waves that we had never seen before. Shaking up not only the UFO community, but also mainstream media. In further work done by the great George Knapp. We later learned that this program not only was connected to every three-letter agency under the sun, but also to the legendary property once owned by Robert Bigelow, Skinwalker Ranch and now studied by one of Utah’s most prominent business men, Brandon Fugal . A property that I have been intrigued by and interested in ever since I learned about Coast to Coast AM, and truly where my roots began in ufology.

Brandon Fugal, Image: Utah Business Magazine

TTSA was what brought the subject full circle, left me without doubt that something strange is happening here and has been for a very long time. TTSA was the tool that got the government to unknowledge this phenomenon in a way they never had before. It answered some questions but has left us all with even more. TTSA is what made me ok with Matt Skiba taking Tom’s place in Blink-182 and has brought a elevation to a subject that was long overdue. No matter the recent TTSA revelations (see Mike B’s recent blog entry) the snowball is running down the hill at an unprecedented pace. I have no doubt in my mind that this can not be stopped. It’s too big, too fast, too involved and too damn interesting to just pull the plug. TTSA has given propose and motivation to even the most average person. Its given a voice, its given bravado in some circumstances. This is a machine that will not stop. To The Stars Academy is something larger than life, and one day could help provide answers to some of our greatest questions.

We cannot uncrack a broken egg.


Au Revoir TTSA?

Au Revoir TTSA?

There has never been an organization quite like TTSA in the history of UFO/UAP studies, considering they don’t even identify themselves as such. So much analysis of this company feels like trying to fit a round peg in a square hole. The comparisons are understandable to previous efforts of groups from different backgrounds working cooperatively that didn’t pan out, but that shouldn’t define every effort in the future that has similarities, including this group.

Our mission is to be a vehicle for change by inspiring a newfound appreciation of the profound, yet unresolved, mysteries of the universe that can unify people around the world. We are working to achieve our mission via an aerospace, science and entertainment consortium that collaborates with global citizens to investigate the outer edges of science and unconventional thinking and provide access to information through exotic engineering, entertainment media, and education that ignites the imagination.”

– TTS AAS Mission from SEC Annual Report FY 2017

Clearly some of the problems the community had with this organization were legitimate. Dave Scott of Spaced Out Radio listed 14 bullet points that red flagged TTSA . Anyone reading this should go check out Dave’s article. Some of those criticisms listed had traction and were legitimate. It’s no secret about the controversy TTSA’s efforts and presence precipitated.

How objective are the criticisms levied at Tom and his organization? They vary , but some deserve further elaboration.

-Tom Delong’s dislike of President Trump(and republicans in general) did not win over many in the predominant right/center right leaning UFO community. Others are just turned off when someone starts talking politics. That doesn’t change the fact that the topic is attached to all sorts of political and religious dogma. The community needs to learn how to navigate partisan rhetoric involving UAP, including Tom. If the intention is for this topic to become a serious talking point, there needs to be recognition it might become even more politicized than it is now. How can the discussion remain objective then?

-TTSA did not focus on witnesses/events from well known cases in the past was another criticism. I’m not sure this is entirely true. The scope of a project can define what you attack. Obviously their scope was not to rehash all of UFO history. Issues with this are more expectation management and less of TTSA not delivering. But it’s worth noting that they have cited other previous, well known cases in some of their work like Rendlesham Forest.

-It’s hasty to assume the TTSA former “spooks” are the same as the ones that help kept this story underground. To paint all DOD/DIA employees with the same brush isn’t a fair shake.

The TTSA saga is not over…yet. Most of the community is unsure of their future, but some people close to the situation say that “…this is one of the best things that could of happened.”

At the end of 2020, I’m reflecting on the last couple of years. When we look up at the disclosure scoreboard, no one was putting up points like TTSA.

Love it or hate it.

5 Questions for Humanity: Is Society Ready for Disclosure?

Perhaps the only timeline in which we survive is the timeline in which we come together in time to save ourselves. 

Is that one element of the Secrecy? 

If Eisenhower would have brought forth a new golden age of sustainable clean energy technology and the end of scarcity as we know it, would that somehow lead to the acceleration of the endtimes?

There exists inside me a tiny indestructible iron core of optimism (some would call it naivety) hidden beneath my modus operandi – layers of jaded skepticism and molten rage.

This little annoying nugget of sanguinity keeps wondering if somehow the Secrecy was foundational to allowing humanity to forge it’s own future.

I cast my gaze backwards in history to try to understand the people in the same vein of, but who came before, Luis Elizondo, Chris Mellon, and the team driving government transparency via new lawful Congressional mandates. 

I see this pushing on the sea of government bureaucracy as worthy work. That’s just where I’ve landed and I know some of my #ufotwitter friends disagree. This post is not meant to scold or divide, I would rather try to understand and engage.

But for now, if we assume Chris & Lue are on the side of light, it means there were probably other similar Peaceful Warriors around in the ‘50s and ‘60s. So what happened? Why did Secrecy become the norm? 

This is where optimism comes in. 

Maybe Disclosure might not have been the most utilitarian choice for humanity back then.

Maybe the heroes of yesteryear engineered the timeline to lay the foundation for us all to rise to this moment. 

And maybe there still remain real societal pitfalls surrounding Disclosure, even today, that would prevent some from pursuing this path as the ideal timeline for humanity.

If the moment really has come for our destiny to be forever changed, for the Secrecy to come crashing down, then let’s take a look at just a few examples of how things could go wrong.

If only just to help Lue & Chris think of potential gaps in their strategy – the unexpected consequences of Disclosure.

Ready? This’ll be fun, in a super gloomy way. 

  1. Launching the Loop. If we’re trying to alter timelines in the future, maybe we can only go as far back as when we discovered time travel, and maybe if we delay that as long as possible, we give ourselves the best possible chance to engineer our own reality as opposed to giving Future Humans their first crack at altering our destiny. Should we start that Loop?

  2. Refugees. Imagine portals open to parallel realities where apocalyptic extinction level events are occurring. Now imagine from their perspective there’s a few dozen Arks jumping into a time portal, and waiting for them is a writhing tide of time that scatters them across millennia. From our perspective it appears as if there’s an endless stream of refugees pouring into our universe from a timeless parallel reality. Let’s say there’s a few million “scheduled” to arrive in 2028… what do we do with them?

  3. Multi Dimensional Warfare. If Disclosure occurs against the wishes of some higher power, would this unleash a multiversal time war? Realities vs Alien Civilizations vs Time Periods vs Artificial Intelligence vs Planetary Precognitive Sentient Intelligence vs Egregores. What does that chess board even look like? I guess the comic book equivalent of this would be Celestials vs The Kree vs The Time Keepers vs Jane from Speaker of the Dead vs the Green Lantern Planet Mogo vs The Candlemaker. Who’s going to give that briefing to President Biden?

  4. Scarcity. Namely, the end of it. There’s obviously a socioeconomic back up plan for when this inevitably happens, right? Y’all Bohemian Grove mofo’s got something cooking for this situation right? The alternative is grim. Do we have a strong enough cultural, religious, ethical backbone to create a new structural framework centered on the gifting of abundance?
  1. Emigration. If we can suddenly each go to our own carved out section of the galaxy, the timeline, or the multiverse – who gets what? Who gets to go and who has to stay? What does that mean for society? We’re talking a lot about Diversity & Inclusion these days – will everyone just sprint to self segregate into their own corners? 

In each of these scenarios – who decides what happens?

Would a Shadow Government just help the refugees slowly integrate in our society? Would that be the right thing? 

Who else could decide? Is it the UN? Would all nations come together to hold each other accountable for international alien gun laws?

Or do we hand this off to individual governments – the US Congress, the British Parliament, the CCP, Mr. Putin, Mr. Modi? 

Do we let Musk, Bezos, or Gates put their vast intellects and wealth to bear in solving these issues? 

Or do we just turn to Reddit and Twitter polls?

Who in the public realm would we even moderately trust to make the right call here? 

Maybe the only reason they are pushing to tell people is that we are all doomed anyway, so why does it matter? Perhaps because death comes to us all individually, we shouldn’t be surprised when it’s no less inevitable for the broader collective? 

Maybe we’re screwed, the Future Greys win, and our civilization burns in order to birth theirs.

Or maybe their worst fear is that we’ll discover just how powerful we are on our own. 

Either way, I’m just glad that we’re asking these questions out in the open. 

I know where we’d be (stuck debating Wilcock vs Greer) if it wasn’t for those few Peaceful Warriors who’ve pushed our conversation to this level of mainstream acceptance. 

I hope this next generation is ready to take the reins, tackle these questions head on, and shape what comes next for humanity.

The Kecksburg Incident

On December 9, 1965 the small rural town of Kecksburg Pennsylvania became a focal point of mystery when folks witnessed an unmistakably brilliant fireball move across the sky and crash into a wooded area.

Soon after reports had made their way through public and private channels of the crash , the area was cordoned off by State Police officials and U.S. Army.

Intrigued by the commotion, people came to the wooded area to see what was going on, only to be turned away by armed guards. Despite the perimeter being roped off, some individuals claim to have been on site where the crash was. This includes a group of volunteer fire fighters that thought they were responding to a plane crash. One of the firefighters, James Romansky, even claims to have seen a buried metal object covered in hieroglyphics. After being instructed to leave the area, he later witnessed the Army carrying the object away on a flatbed truck. This claim is also supported by other independent eye witnesses.

Military documentation shows nothing was ever found in those woods despite the overwhelming testimony something was recovered and taken away. This outraged many researchers and eyewitnesses alike. Even preposterous headlines were published; in one newspaper , the headline read “Searchers Fail to Find Object”

Fast forward to December 2005, right before the 40th Anniversary of the Kecksburg crash. NASA spokesman David Steitz releases a statement that the object seemingly was a Russian satellite that re-entered the atmosphere and broke up. NASA experts examined pieces from the object, but records of what they found were lost in the 1990s according to Steitz.

Jump to 2007, years after a lawsuit had been filed by investigative reporter Leslie Kean for NASA to turnover documents related to the Kecksburg incident, a federal judge ruled that NASA must conduct a thorough search for these records. Much to the disappointment of many, NASA’s public liaison official Steve McConnell later testified that two boxes of documents pertaining to the Kecksburg crash were indeed missing.

So it seems there’s still a bit of mystery and controversy regarding the Kecksburg crash. Nicholas L. Johnson, NASA’s chief scientist for orbital debris in 2003, told Leslie Kean that orbital mechanics made it absolutely impossible for any part of the Cosmos 96 Venus probe to be sincerely suggested as a possible culprit of the object seen in the sky and what was also witnessed as crashed at Kecksburg that day in 1965. Johnson also went on record that there were no other manmade satellites or other objects that re-entered the atmosphere on that day.

There has also been some research done by the controversial former MUFON State Director John Ventre some years back along with another investigator, Owen Eichler, that suggested the Kecksburg crash was a General Electric Mark 2 Re-entry Vehicle that the Air Force had been using as a spy satellite.

If you’re looking for a great 15 minute rundown on the incident, Small Town Monsters recently released a short docu featuring long time researcher Stan Gordon. A quality production, the short video covers a lot of ground but touches on the major points that should be mentioned.

Regardless of what we believe crashed, it should be noted this stands as reference material to what a crash retrieval coverup looks like. The mystery continues to this day, even taking form in a festival the town of Kecksburg throws every year to commemorate the incident. So while a parade of happy Southwestern Pennsylvanians wearing green alien outfits marches past annually, it seems the parade of clarity and answers still eludes those investigating the Kecksburg incident.

A Constituent & His Congressman

Q&A with Congressman Ed Perlmutter (D) of Colorado on the UAP issue

On August 12th, I had the honor and privilege to sit down with Congressman Ed Perlmutter. This was a meeting that I had been pursuing for nearly two years. My efforts began in September 2019, after the United States Navy had confirmed that the gun camera footage that was released in 2017 by To The Stars Academy was actually taken by U.S. Navy fighter pilots. This was a very significant moment since the public hadn’t received such admissions from the US government in nearly 70 years. When reaching out to Mr.Perlmutter, it was for the goal of learning where my direct congressman stood on such a controversial subject.

It’s my opinion that in the early stages of these communications the staff of the congressman were not taking me or the subject seriously. I didn’t fault them for this position because we didn’t have nearly the amount of evidence that we do today, like the DOD’s announcement and acknowledgement of the GIMBAL, Go Fast, and Tic-Tac videos. However, it was frustrating that my request to speak to my elected official was being filtered by the staff, and not being taken seriously. I was eventually connected with Jeff O’Neil, Legislative Director for Congressman Perlmutter. Jeff and I spoke for over 30 minutes and he listened to my concerns about the subject. After the call and a series of emails that spanned two months I was told that the Congressman was interested to follow the subject, but Jeff was unsure if Congressman Perlmutter would want to be briefed more personally on the matter.

I found this lack of commitment unacceptable and continued to try and get the Congressman to take the subject in a serious manner. I was eventually coached by Jeff to attend a town hall so I could get a more “in person” response. Shortly after these email communications took place , the COVID-19 pandemic took the world by storm. During the beginning of pandemic I did feel like our elected officials had more on their plate to deal with than me, so I held off.

Fast forward to summer of 2021; With the release of the UAPTF report June 25, 2021 and continued silence from Congressman Perlmutter my frustrations had grown. So on July 12th I attended a telephone townhall hosted by the congressman. I provided my question, spent an hour on the phone patiently listening, and waiting for my question to be asked.  The meeting ended without my question being raised. At this point I felt like I had hit a wall and done more than the average constituent should have to in order to gain the conversation I was looking for. Adding insult to injury was that I was still not being taken seriously by the Congressman’s office.

After the town hall concluded I called and left a voicemail for the Congressman’s office, emailed and even tweeted my frustrations on Twitter. The morning of July 13th, I called again, and was connected with the Congressman’s Constituent Services Rep. That call turned out to be very interesting. As i perceived their response as low key shaming me for my efforts. I was not going to be bullied on this topic. I explained to the Constituent Rep, my efforts, and that I found it was unacceptable for a constituent like my self to do everything her office asked me to but I still end up with a unsatisfactory result.

That’s when the tide changed.

Something changed, and it happened to be awesome. Was my concern at last taken seriously? After many calls, emails, tweets and frustrations vented, the staffer arranged to get me on the books for a virtual meeting over zoom with the Congressman. This meeting happened on August 12, 2021.

Here are the questions I asked, and the responses made by the congressman.

TZ: Are you aware of the June 25th congressionally approved Preliminary report on UAP, provided by ODNI (Office of the Director of National Intelligence)?

EP: I’m aware of it, I haven’t…read it.

TZ: Have you receive the classified briefing

EP: No.

TZ: Would you peruse gaining that briefing?

EP: YES! Actually I was reading some notes in preparation for our meeting today. And I am interested in this stuff, so yes I will follow up to get a briefing

TZ: Bill Nelson, NASA Administrator asked NASA scientists to look into the UAP issue, What additional steps is NASA taking? Are you aware of any?

EP: I’m not aware, we had the administrator in front of the science committee, 3 weeks ago I would guess, that um, at least for the whole time I was there, which was pretty much the whole time, that topic did not come up. But now as you’re sorta pointing me towards the intelligence report, or get the briefing next time he’s in front of us I can ask him those questions, you know see what they’re doing or see if they’ve discovered something new that they haven’t shared with anyone

TZ: Do you know how or if NASA is coordinating with the DOD, or Department of Energy?

EP: No, I don’t know if they are on this particular subject. They do coordinate as a general principal, on a whole variety of issues related to outer space. Particularly now, they’re having to coordinate all of the space debris that exist from prior launches and different things. The DOD and NASA and NOAA have to make sure that our satellites or our different vehicles that we have up there aren’t running into things. So there is that coordination. If there’s coordination as it relates to unidentified objects, I don’t know. I need to ask that question.

TZ: How would you feel about establishing a national science panel under NASA? I think that would be vitally important for a number of reasons. The biggest one is that it would help win mainstream science acceptance over the issue, but in doing so it would also help expand our range of knowledge. I know you sit on the national labs caucus as well and one of the people who spoke at that was Neil deGrasse Tyson, an astrophysicist. He gave a speech and if you look at some of the things he’s mentioned, they haven’t been very kind or supportive of the topic. You know science is very black and white and it’s what you can prove and what you cant. And here we have some of the most highly trained observers the world has ever seen, with the most highly advanced sensor systems being deployed at the same exact time; would you help champion an idea of devolving something of that nature to gain that support by mainstream science?

EP: I don’t know, I would have to think about that one. Exactly what it is you’re trying to accomplish, what kind of board you’re trying to create. NASA itself is under, there’s a specific board that is out of the White House that deals with sorta of space matters generally, science matters generally, so there already is a very substantial board that actually has some say over NASA. So I don’t know about putting a board under NASA. I mean that’s sorta the structural stuff we’d have to figure out exactly what the board intended to do. So I think that’s got to be further thought on that subject.

TZ: Would you be open to talking to even some of our Colorado congressional leaders such as Rep. Michael Bennett? I know he sits on the intel committee with Marco Rubio, which they were kind of the driving force behind developing this UAPTF. Have you spoken to any of the other Colorado congressional members? Would you be open to sharing Constituents’ concerns with them?

EP: No, haven’t spoken to any other members about this subject. And sure, I’d be open to talking to them about it. Since he sits on the intelligence committee, he’s pretty much constrained as to what he can actually talk about because of the top secret nature of discussions that they have. But I certainly can share with him your concern

TZ: Fmr Senate Majority leader Harry Reid has gone on record saying that these things have shown up over nuclear facilities, nuclear weapons facilities and have manipulated nuclear weapons. I think that’s a grave concern so my ask is would you be willing to be a little more open in the public sphere about this and share the drive to kind of let’s get to the bottom of this? If it ends up being something mundane then ok so be it, let’s move on. But let’s get to the root cause of what we’re seeing

EP: Alright so let’s start with your premise. I’m not aware of what Harry Reid has said and I’ll ask my staff to pull some quotes or something. Or maybe you can share that with us? I’m not familiar with his comments. As I said, I’m willing to dig deeper into this precisely. You got to understand I have got about a bazillion things going on. From education issues, to foreign affairs, to financial issues, to science, to subjects like this. So you know, in that time frame then I’ll try to squeeze it in. Not to deminimize this or diminish its importance, but I just have a lot of really intense and important things to be dealing with in my every day. With in the constraints of my time, yes I’m gonna look at this. And yes, if there’s something that isn’t just a nothing burger, then I’m not gonna talk about it. If there’s something interesting then, sure ill talk about it. My first thing that I want to accomplish is to either read the report or to get a briefing. So that’s what I pledge up to you I will do over the course of the next month or so.

I’d done it. A success, a win, what ever you want to call it, I had finally accomplished what I had set out to do two years ago. I finally, was able to hear for myself where the Congressman who oversees my direct district stood on the UAP issue. Had he received the classified briefing? No, but he committed to peruse it, and in doing so will add another member of the United States 117th Congress, to the number of leaders who have already received the classified briefing, those of which already know this is real, and a serious and important subject.

What changed? Was it the UAPTF report? Was it the Deputy Secretary of Defense June 25th memo penned by Kathleen Hicks? Or were they tired of dealing with me? I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to answer that but I had accomplished my mission. Was it my own personal mission? Sure but it also could lead to something bigger. Something more tangible and realistic for others to achieve. Furthermore the sigma attached to the UAP/UFO issue is dying a slow, but noticeable death.

To my knowledge there have not been any other, if not very few, members of Congress that are not a part of the Armed Forces Committee or Intelligence Committee that have asked for and received the classified briefing. Now even to my own surprise, I’ve added one.

This serves as a proof of concept that with enough determination and asking the right questions, even an average guy like myself can make a difference in the subject of UAP’s. And maybe even encourage or inspire others to do the same. If we want our United States government to disclose what it may or may not know about these unknown craft of unknown origin, it’s up to us the continents who have the right and power to bring the long time secrets out of the shadows. But first we have to start asking for it.

High Strangeness As a Child Directs My Life.

Early 80’s when I was 6 years old, I had around five extremely vivid and terrifying episodes of ‘ultimate realness of being stuck in a section of eternity‘. An animated fractal dimension of forever travelling into complex, white geometry without getting anywhere.

There was immense, wrathful pressure that was felt in the center of my heart that was focused to a pin-point. That pin-point was the only place where my consciousness existed.

Something seemingly external to me was applying the force with malice and this non-stop telepathic force was conveying to me that I was responsible for ‘everything’ and this was my punishment. The exit from these episodes were instant, leaving me wide awake and wanting to scream. It was however, not possible to scream and seemed pointless as being wide awake felt less real than where I just was.

Apart from those episodes, a 20 second nightmare was a major moment.

I was outside in the bushland next to the house looking up in the night sky with my family. Embedded within the stars and light years from Earth was a circular pattern of around 10 lights that were moving rapidly and uniformly in locked formation. I recall becoming instantly terrified and running while my family stayed still. That dream loosely inspired me a couple of years ago to take long exposure photos of my drone that I added LED’s to.


The memory of those experiences haunted me into my teenage years, where I intensely started exploring lucid dreaming and out-of-body states. I became very good at dream recall and developed techniques for lucid dream stabilization. The out-of-body experiences were far less successful, I counted 13 experiences where I partially ‘left my body’, either via conscious effort or spontaneously. Fear and not knowing what to do next always woke me out of it and the maximum height I perceived to feel outside of myself was around 10 feet upwards for 15 seconds.

My interest in lucid dreaming naturally progressed to reading about psychedelics and I was fortunate enough to live near green pastures where I could find psilocybin mushrooms. I then moved out of home at nineteen and moved to Sydney where I was extremely fortunate to move into a share-house with a well-known psychedelic chemist named ‘Gastro’ who gave me my first Dimethyltryptamine experience. Within 2 minutes of inhaling the vapor of melting crystals, I was face to face with an alien, male presence that was utterly stunning and scary. I felt an utmost importance to stay as awake as possible, fighting off tiredness with the same techniques I learnt from my lucid dreaming training. A full report I posted online in 2002 can be found here.

This is the artwork I made around 2 years later.

DMT Entity, 2001

I’ve had one other contact experience that was very similar to the DMT-accessed apparition, and it’s the one I find most strange to discuss as it occurred naturally after waking up from sleep.

It was morning and the room I was in was already quite bright with the morning sunrise. As I was waking up and with my eyes fully open, my vision clouded over with sharp, fast moving dull patterns. Visual disturbances that can occur sometimes if you change position too quickly or have low blood pressure. This generally fades within seconds, but in this case, it progressed in complexity and vibrancy.

DMT Entity art from 2000, projected onto my face. Photo By James Henry.

What came perfectly into focus 3 feet before me put me in a state of stunned awe. I was staring into the eyes of a female presence that had human eyes. We both locked eyes and mirrored each other’s awe. I had tears silently streaming down my face. There was the feeling of pure equal love and knowing. It may have been around 10 seconds before she started to fade away. She was the same colors as the male DMT apparition and had no mouth. The best example I’ve found is by Artist Robert Venosa.

Scheherazade, 1997 by Robert Venosa. Cover Art for his art book, Illuminatus

Throughout my life I have attempted to ride the line of complete skeptic and accidental mystic. I have given a talk where I proposed an idea that visions seen on DMT is a side-effect of Hominid’s innate ability to detect snake-skin patterns amongst foliage as a survival strategy, and DMT causes a feedback loop when similar patterns are hallucinated, thus creating strange predatory apparitions. The full presentation can be found here.


Now, back to my childhood. Around the same year as my terrifying episodes, my mother was standing outside our home in Possum Brush, NSW near the washing line and saw a sphere being followed by two jets. She’s been telling our family for decades about what she saw. Here’s her most recent quotes about her sighting.

Sighting lasted a few minutes. Fairly high up in the sky. The ball was solid and shiny. Looked like steel. When the jets got closer that’s when all went quiet and the two jets were stationery. About four seconds later the UFO shot off with the jets chasing it again. Then they were in the distance, ‘out of sight’ range. It was silver in full sunlight. Silver or shiny white
Audrey Hill, 2021

Here’s a link to sightings around the same time that’s related to the Williamtown RAAF base, that’s 100 nautical miles from the family home.

I will continue to search up about these sightings. I have recently found an archive of old newspaper clippings and will update this blog if I find anything of interest.

Roger Essig, 27th August 2021.

Secretary of Air Force Says We Should Take the Phenomenon Seriously

Bryan Bender from POLITICO scored some clutch UFO commentary from US Secretary of the Air Force Frank Kendall recently. Bender tweeted out that he had asked the Secretary “…if he has been briefed on UAPs and if he has thought about what the service’s role should be in defending American airspace against unidentified craft.”

Kendall is reported to have responded with ” I’ve given a great deal of thought to defending American airspace but not against UFOs. If asked to do that then we will do it. This is a thing that’s been around for a great many years.”

Other notable quotes from Kendall included:

“I know a lot people take it very seriously and I think we should take the phenomenon seriously and try to investigate it.”

“I don’t consider it an imminent threat to the United States or the human race, these phenomenon occurring. But they obviously tweak a lot of peoples’ curiosity and encourage speculation. So if we’re asked to take that on, we will.”

“I would have to see evidence that it was something worthy of the attention of the…Air Force as a threat. Our job is to protect…against threats. I have a lot of known threats out there that we’re working very hard to protect the [US] against. I’d like to focus on those.”

In trying to digest these statements it becomes apparent much follow up is needed. The verbiage Kendall used here was a bit of a shock and the apparent sentiment a welcome addition to other eyebrow raising commentary from this administration’s cabinet appointees.

Is there a pattern of cabinet members speaking from an informed position on the UFO/UAP topic? There seems to be a consensus amongst a few that an effort is underway to educate and coach executive branch leadership on broaching the UAP issue. This could be where knowing your modern UFO history sheds light on what could be possibly happening.

Probably the most comprehensive analyses of the Tom DeLonge WikiLeaks emails has been done by Canadian researcher and experiencer Grant Cameron. I highly recommend trying to digest some of his work on this particular subject ; especially his highlights of former Clinton White House Chief of Staff and Hillary Clinton Campaign Manager , John Podesta.

It’s no secret that Podesta is relatively close with Biden seeing as John worked regularly with the Obama administration. It is most definitely suspect then that John would hopefully try to undo what he considered his biggest failure of 2014 ; securing the disclosure of the UFO files.


So , could it be true that John Podesta has been busy behind the scenes attempting to secure that disclosure? Or at the very least, helping position pieces on that proverbial chess board? It would be wise going forward to keep an eye on the think tank he founded named Center for American Progress. I hesitate to say there is a definitive link here but can’t help but think chalking these recent comments from Frank Kendall up to just coincidence and personal opinion might be untrue to some degree.

Quick Reacts: ODNI Preliminary UAP Assessment

– We got the win.

The Report was always just a thumbs up or thumbs down on more investigation/funding/access to classified sensors & signal collection systems… and we got a thumbs up! The fact that DoD immediately announced the UAP Task Force will become a permanent investigative body ultimately represents a small but important win. It’s another step in the right direction on the long path we’re on – just keep the big picture in view.

-They named the unexplained incidents and admitted we don’t know

The permanent program will focus on the 143 out of 144 (!) unexplained UAP incidents and in particular the 18 (!) where UAP demonstrated advanced “flight characteristics or signature management” that neither our best trained pilots nor our most cutting edge sensors can explain “pending scientific advances.” These were the incidents conveniently bucketed into the “Other” phenomenon category. Pretty wild that they admitted we are behind scientifically to… someone or something.

– The ignorant voices are the loudest but those in the know are starting to counter

Remember that this is the watered down UNCLASSIFIED version. Bill Nelson, NASA Administrator, who has top security clearance due to his former role on Congressional Intelligence committees, has seen the Classified version and just told CNN today that he doesn’t believe it’s Russian or Chinese and that it’s not ours. Mitt Romney also said the same thing. That’s progress. So don’t pay attention to any talking heads on TV telling people there’s no evidence for extraterrestrial intelligence, they just don’t have access to the military sensor data – it’s classified.

– We’re just getting started

Our job now is to PUSH. To push for more declassified data, more congressional follow up, military accountability, and even public hearings. We are an active participant in this journey, and not just passive observers of this history unfolding before our eyes. Keep up the pressure #ufotwitter!

Quest for Truth

The new year has started out with a bang or a dud. Depending on your point of view. Lots of excitement surrounds the UFO community as we near a deadline for the UAPTF report. Harvard scientist, DOD contractors and different ex intelligence officials hinting that we should study the subject openly. More interviews on podcasts with faces that are familiar to “us.” Yet the struggle continues to have the subject on primetime (6pm World News) ABC NBC CBS. The anchors we see here in the USA are not getting the green light from their producers to report it. Why? How does something that has national security implications continue to fly under the radar (literally)? COVID, Election and aftermath, the hottest hookups between celebrity A and B continues to kick us to the curb. I am under no impression that the treasure will be revealed in the first UAPTF report. Nor do I think it will be the last. I see a fully funded program in the future if we demand it. The cloak and dagger continues as people who had certain information and security clearances are shuffled away from the task force. The keepers of the secret are a feisty bunch and will not go down without a fight. That is their plan but in the words of one of the fiercest boxers to enter the squared circle (M. Tyson) “everyone has a plan, until they get punched in the face.” The community together is that punch IMO.

What next then? As we saw before our very eyes 2.9 million people changed the status quo in the stock market. They upended the market and a lot of rich folks lost their minds. I think there is 2 million people in the USA that want this subject studied and out in the open. We have been told already that we have to contact our officials, us the people. These officials are on this very platform for us to communicate with them. It will take more than a tweet though. A coordinated effort by all who are really interested in ending the secrecy is needed. Email which is the quickest way for our concerns to be read. Letters which take longer to sift through but have an impact. Possible protests are farther down the road. For now as a collective we need to use our given rights. Why?

  1. To demonstrate to an official that his constituents are aware of an issue or situation and have a real interest in the outcome.
  2. To inform an official about an issue giving background and history that he or she might not have.

How can this not help. There are so many of you with thousands of followers in large numbers, I know not all are citizens of this country but even if half or more are that’s huge. Many of you also have direct links to these talking heads on Twitter. The ones that post videos every other day and give their insight on the subject. Why would they not want to be behind this effort? Personally I think it also a great way to call these folks to action to see if they are worried about numbers or to bring things to light. Our friends outside of the continental US, I am sure have friends here that they can implore them to make CONTACT. The emphasis is the USA but others can do the same in their country. Some of you have spoken of a date that we can target. How can July 2nd which is World Ufo Day not be that day to make an impact, it is only fitting to do so. There are templates for letters and email already being passed around. I will pin the one I have on my page if interested. It is time to put the proverbial POMPOMS down and get in the game. If you have the ability to motivate others on this subject do it. Or in the words of Rapper Ludacris….”Move b%$ch! Get out the way!” JK…

Another point that I would like to make in order to help this cause. For my experiencer folks. The nuts and bolts aspect of the phenomena is not much of an interest to many of you. I understand that disclosure has already happened in one FORM or another. Proper study of one brings the study of other phenomenon that is happening in your personal lives. It is not a barrier I agree with but unfortunately it is there. IMO your voice is needed in this effort. I hope you agree.

I urge many of you to copy and paste and share this with others that do not follow UAP Blog. The end goal is the same, we eventually will need all hands on deck to pull each other out of the muddy waters.

Not picking on these guys but just an example.

Richard Dolan 55k

Jeremy Corbell 36k

George Knapp 63k

Jimmy Church 36k

EarthFiles 37k

Before there was no one to address this to in the USA. Now we have the Honorable Mark Warner.

Conspiracies and Compartmentalizing Axioms

I’m so thankful for the people in the UFO community that have documented the manipulation of conspiracies over the decades. Their examples have served many of us well, demonstrating a precedent in how to approach these claims and outlining how invested to be in them. From SERPO to the obvious intelligence community participation on Twitter, there always seems to be a party interested in your belief system.

Frequently it seems the UFO field is surrounded by other suggested conspiracies to be involved. I won’t pretend that I have researched all of these connections to an extent that I can prove to you, or anyone , that they are indeed false and not connected. Just because one participates in UAP/UFO discussions doesn’t mean you owe it to anyone to chase down other conspiracies. So I will avoid mentioning what I’ve heard in particular, but I’m confident anyone reading this knows a few of the claims being vaguely referenced.

This is where discernment and logic need to be applied. The criteria needed to prove something true, in a reasonable manner, is not the same criteria as proving something false.

I see so many intelligent people, online and in my life, conflate the criteria of proving something true versus false. Even some of our popular opinion leaders in the UFO field fall victim to this poor form. To be more accurate, we’re seeing the suggestion that any inability to meet the criteria of proving something false somehow proves the conspiracy true. This type of thinking is a fallacy.

The failure to prove something reasonably false is only indicative that you cannot meet the criteria proving it false. Full stop. Drawing conclusions that the failure to prove something false means it’s true will only end up distracting and wasting time.

Compartmentalize your logical axioms. Narrow the scope of your evaluation. Apply rigorous criticisms to the conclusions you draw. Most importantly, don’t let your emotions cloud the interpretation of your investigation.

My thoughts on Ufotwitter 2021 by 10 U.S.C 119-SAP @AjayDaGreat

I have been fascinated with the subject since my Uncle Airmen Arturo Baez Colon II (R.I.P) first told me about him and his copilots encounter in the Vietnam War April 1969 flying over Cambodia in the AC119 Stinger. On a clear day about 2 pm at 18000 feet, a crescent shaped gun metal grey Ufo appeared at their 3 o’clock position approximately 100 feet in front of their aircraft, they were at a cruising speed of about 175 mph. It dropped in like “someone playing with a Yoyo” was his description. It “darted” from their 3 to 12 then 9 o’clock position for 5 minutes, then dropped back behind them. Lost visual at that point. It was half the length than the AC119 which was about 90 feet in length. No blip on the radar or notifications from ground. They did not report the incident. He said they were terrified because he thought it would crash into them. The Ufo never took aggressive action. I asked if maybe if it was missile? He replied “if it was, I would be dead.” Until his passing in 2006 we would find time at reunions to talk. The story was always the same. This testimony is from someone who did not know anything about Ufo prior to being drafted into the war.

I , like many of you , dropped into this rabbit hole and have not cared to resurface from it. For two decades I have read and listened to other serious researchers books, magazines to present day blogs. From nuts and bolts (anything military, my favorite part) ) to consciousness, entities going thru walls, you name it, I have indulged in a lot of aspects of the subject. Ruppelt, Vallee, Keel, Stringfield, Mack, Dolan to following UFO Joe And Danny Silva to Ufotwitter. For many years I knew this part of Twitter existed but only peeked in on it every now and then. In July of this year I decided to enter the fray. I have learned things I was unaware of, even though I consider myself well read. From engaging experiencers, skeptics to scientist working on potentially ground breaking experiments. People who are putting in work. Podcasts and Youtube channels going over older and new cases, sharing information to a new audience, who continue to tune in everyday. These platforms are helping people share their experiences, this is so helpful for people affected by their encounters. If it was pleasant or not…now these have become release valves for them. It is also a great place for those who are past class ‘UFO101″ and on to the infamous “Math 55 class” (Harvard) of Ufology (or so we think). I see passionate people doing their best to raise awareness and uncover the most important finding in all mankind. I along with others appreciate their efforts even if no one tells them so. A true worldwide community. Ufotwitter helps in this regard in my opinion.

I also see the old school authors, writers and researchers who I have also followed from a far. These men and women in their own way keep a balance, no one asked them to but they do. If they have an opinion on someone’s post or comment, at times might seem demeaning or being talked down to. Like “I have four decades in this subject, you are not going to tell me that is not a balloon!” You get the gist. Like Ufotwitter Cops! They too are passionate and want acknowledgement for what exists, whatever it may be. They do not want the subject to be ridiculed because of wackos and frauds. Which many agree is a problem. People must grow thicker skin when you become combatants on opinions. They are just words after all. If you just dropped in on this subject in 2017 when a group in the USA helped declassify the three videos. Great! The veil has been removed from your eyes and voila…the real world is exposed in all its flawed glory. In my opinion having different narratives is paramount when it comes to “disclosure.” Waiting for people to give us the big news, picture or videos can be frustrating and agonizing. I have hope but have my guards up. So the more the merrier when it comes to getting leaks and data from people not associated to each other. I see no way of all of you holding hands and singing kumbaya together. Too many different views in what ‘disclosure” will look like. I do see people looking for the same result. An acknowledgement of an existence that is not us (human). What is visiting people directly? What is taking people against their will? Or if some of these Ufo that are being sighted, are ours…what the hell is the fuel source behind it? It is not plants, coal or gas is it? The answers we all wish we had. Although some claim they do, yet we do not believe them. At least here in the USA we have some type of dialogue with the government. It is still early but is progressing. The UAPTF could possibly be the first domino to fall. In a worldwide effect that would also help other governments be transparent with their citizens. Most countries are literally being told “nothing to see here.” so be grateful. Without any progression to this point. We would probably still be talking about “The Phoenix Lights” or if Dan Burisch was telling the truth.

I have seen alternatives to express ones thoughts pop up on Twitter lately .COM, .BLOGS. Giving a voice to people that want to share observations and experiences. A lot of us do not have the time or funds to launch anything bigger. This too will help the regular schmuck that has opinions and not be limited to 180 characters. If you use the hashtag or not I have good expectations for 2021 in moving the one thing we all have in common forward Ufo/Uap. I myself lean more on the activism part, like I said before I have no insiders. Oh wait…..to be honest, Mr.Jack Sarfatti (alleged TIC TAC inventor) finally answered a question of mine after three years of asking. So you never know. I will continue to follow and support people doing real work. I will continue to share good information and post it. I will keep sending sternly worded emails to my representatives, its not as glamourous as a Youtube channel or a Podcast but all work the same in my opinion. For those who have followers and people who rely on your research and work. Keep going and stay true to yourself. I will interject the proverbial “its a marathon, not a race” when it comes to “disclosure.” Others who dedicated their lives to this subject have come and gone. It is entirely possible we have a long road ahead or 180 days wink wink. Just keep pushing so future generations can have a different life. To know we are not alone in this vast Universe will definitely humble us and change the way we see each other. If you reached this far of the article. Thanks.